[Pam went on pilgrimage to Medjugorje in March of 2021 and returned to Medjugorje in June 2021]
When I got home, I realized that I was a little bit arrogant when I was here the first time, and I was humbled.
That was my lesson that I didn’t learn while I was here, but it happened when I got home. So I wanted to come back to the same place, I guess in repentance. I’m coming with a humble heart, and I just wanted Our Lord and His Mother to know that.
I love God. I try to follow Him. I don’t wait too long when I hear something.
I haven’t been praying through Mary ever because I’ve been in the Protestant church. You don’t even mention Her name. So when I came two months ago, I was seeking something from Her. I’ve had a relationship with Our Lord, and I wanted something from Her.
I was actually told by God, about three and a half years ago, out of the blue, I was walking through my office, and He told me to get to know His Mother. That’s what started me on this whole thing. I’ve gotten the books. I started getting interested in all the apparitions because I knew nothing. Then I found out She’s still coming here. That got me interested.
If I’m going to get to know somebody, I’m going to go where they are. I had this underlying pressure on myself to get something from Her personally, and it was relieved of me at the apparition. I was sitting behind Marija and I broke down because it was like, “I’m sorry, Our Lady. I want Jesus.”
It was a good thing because it relieved me of that feeling.
Father Rossi: She led you to Her Son.
Pam: And that’s what She always does, but I already had the Lord. It was interesting that I found myself really upset because I haven’t had this connection with Her like I have through the Holy Spirit with Our Lord.
Father Rossi: Maybe She’s leading you to Her Son in the Eucharist, which brings you back into the fold of the Catholic Church.
Pam: That’s true, and I’m trying to grab that. I’m trying to get that. [In the Protestant church] you’re getting a representation, a remembrance of the thing.
Father Rossi: She’s leading you back to the Eucharist, and the Eucharist is leading you back to the Catholic Church.
Pam: You’re putting my puzzle together for me.
Father Rossi: The Lord is putting the puzzle together for you. He wants you to know Him in the Eucharist.
Pam: I’m getting there.
I went for adoration before the trip, and I told Jesus, “Yes I believe it’s You.” I said that. I didn’t feel nothing, but I said it. So it’s coming.